I am eagerly awaiting the return of Scrappy here on Saturday night. Unfortunately, I have to leave for Korea on Sunday afternoon, but I’m back mid-week, Scrappy will need time to sniff about his new dog house. I’m sure I will come back with everything relocated.
We all know that stress is usually about a lot of little things layer on. You don’t realize it, but your body does. I’ve severely reduced my alcohol,; been exercising every day and mostly just working. But things are building up. You just worry about shit. You don’t even realize you’re worried about it. But yet you do.
I’ve been catching up on the blogs to the right here and quite honestly, most of the stuff is pretty lame reading. My own writing is lame. The reality is all bloggers start with some fire, something that motivates them to write. Life changing stuff and it’s interesting to read and follow along, especially if you’ve been down or going down that road yourself.
But if anything, the lame writing reveals that life returns to a certain level of normality. Things settle down. The dark cloud moves on. The sun rises again and we all realize that what we thought was the end of the earth really wasn’t. As we know from reading the popular Steve Jobs biography: “The journey is the reward.”
I’m worried about how to further solidify the relationship with Scrappy or if either of us really want to and just what does ‘solidify’ mean. The reality is most things in life are temporal so you must enjoy it while it’s there. Because it may not be there tomorrow. But we’ve hung on for 4+ years now and if we find a way, we’ll find a way together.
I do believe life is better with a true partner in it. No amount of telling me how it ain’t so is gonna change my mind. All the fuck buddies, bitches and “good friends” aren’t going to give you that special feeling. I know cause I’ve lived and am living the dream. But this doesn’t mean you’re sitting in the cheap seats if you don’t have the special someone, just don’t stop looking or being open to it.