BREAKING NEWS The Euro chief messages me at 2:00 p.m. "Will call at 2:15?". At 2:15 when he calls, I'm driving down the Dulles Tollway, I answer with "What's the package?". My job is no more.
Worried? Nah. When technology companies start the layoffs, they rarely stop and more rarely recover. It's called the death spiral. In my own experiences, it's best to get off at the first stop, never fun to ride these companies down.
I call TC to let him know the news. You could hear his heart drop on the phone, luckily he's coming back to DC tomorrow and we can talk in person. Anticipating this all to happen, late last night I sent him the following email:
Thanks for showing me your love and emotion, I need that and I know it's harder for you to show, you can trust me with it. I hope in time you will learn to not let things build and when they do, let them run off. Saying sorry isn't always an admission of guilt, but simply expressing sadness at a situation and wishing it were different – you sometimes struggle with that emotion.
Not sure how all this turns out, it's a real page turner we are. I don't want you to turn out like the fairy uncle hairdresser who shows up for family occasions and is the life of the party, a friend to all, but deep down sad about how their life turned out. Now is the moment you can and should be taking chances, risking it all, because you can recover, pick up and go on, or take off. You need to map out for yourself how this all works out and be happy with it, because I can't make that decision for you.
You spoke of going to India or Thailand, you have great dreams and those dreams should be acted upon, otherwise they remain nothing but dreams. If that is your inspiration, then run to it and make sure you're not running away from something else. There is never a bad time to act.
I'm not sure what I would do at this point without you, but I do know, I care enough that I want whatever is best for you, it is perhaps the greatest gift I can give, one of understanding and hope. The seas outside are gonna get rough, I will weather it, make sure you understand the voyage you are signing up for.