I am sorry my friends but I am reaching the end of my rope. My business is growing just not fast enough, dual living expenses burning the core of my assets, the end of the runway approaching and I’m not at V1, likely gonna go into the trees. Fair weather friends long gone. Main house, could easily dump $20k into it for repairs. A tiger up far up in the Great Northern Territories. Sleep is now elusive to me. I’m mad. Mad at the US gov’t for creating the police state I have to live in. Mad at them doing stupid things. Mad when I see Sarah Palin, clearly not too bright and how this is representative of what this country wants? I’m leaving folks, fast I can, it’s not fast enough though. I won’t come back. Let a Mexican in, he can have my spot on the boat, I won’t be needing it.
I am interviewing. People are calling back. They’re interested. I’ve got a consulting project now, I got another one this week. But I’m just not interested. It’s always the same, please help us figure out how to unfuck our company. I specialize in saying 3 smart things in an hour long conversation that lend the impression I have some clue or give a shit. I’m the master of the obvious. Overpaid executives, pompes asses most of them, they seem to be incredibly smart until they’re incredibly dumb. What’s missing is that most things in life are simply luck. No amount of hard work can fix a dumb idea. Look for a good idea. Executives try daily to change those odds. I’m tired of being in this circular rat race. If this is it, I ain’t coming to the events any more.
I struggle each morning to get to what is truly important to me, what will make me happy? I’m happy with street food, tired of the showy fake people at fancy restaurants with mediocre offerings. I want an $8 bottle of wine, red or white, doesn’t matter. I am at TC’s rat trap of an apartment, disgusting, dirty, on the border of vile (which by the way is being sold for over $800k fuck me). We sleep on some nasty ass mattress which simply lies on the floor. But I sleep. I sleep soundly.
There lie signals to me, I fear I am missing them, the signal is weak and my batteries are tired.