My story started in May 2006. I didn’t start writing about it until April 2007. Either which way you calculate, this is now 4 years in the making. Today, there are things that are easier and some that are not. I ponder each day, do I have anything to tell you, an experience to share, something humorous to bring a smile to you face, something sad to make you reflect or something that just makes you think.
These writings are in some odd way “War and Peace” in Internet form, fed to you each day in bite size chunks, hoping you won’t realize you’ve read the 600 some odd postings here to be found. But I have been at war. Mostly with myself, occasionally with mankind in general. I press on though at this point unsure what the ultimate goal is. Perhaps it is indeed peace that I am seeking.
The hardest truth we all face is the acceptance that it is what is is. So much energy is devoted to trying to change the way our stream wants to flow. We are not ‘this’ as long as we want to be ‘that’. We spend countless hours trying to manage our various relationships, always trying to get people to behave slightly different that they are, hoping that with a little love, patience and effort – it can all be different.
To accept things at face value is an admission of defeat. Surely with effort, energy and ambition, it all can be changed. Changed to how we want it to appear.
Liking fighting the incoming surf, we brace for impact, willing ourselves forward. But perhaps we should simply let go and let the surf carry us, perhaps here is where we will all find peace.